Growing up, I knew there was more wrong than right, in our home, however, I also knew that I had a Dad who loved and cared about me and if not for he and my maternal grandmother, I probably would not have survived. My mother was extremely abusive toward me and the rest of our … Continue reading Torn
From the day I was born, my mother was extremely jealous of me. She was abusive both verbally and physically. If not for my Dad, my brothers and my maternal Grandmother, I may not have survived. Lessons are to be learned from all life’s experiences. One thing is for certain, jealousy has consequences. She was … Continue reading The Green-Eyed Monster
December 2007 We had recently moved from the area my daughters grew up in when I received a call from an officer with the PD. When he first began speaking, telling me who he was and where he was calling from, my first thought was, oh dear god, something has happened to my Dad. Once … Continue reading Death of my childhood monster…and her monster as well.
My Dad would have been 91 today. I miss him. Grieving the loss of a loved one is one of the toughest parts of our life’s journey. I’ve lost over 50 close friends and family members and I often wonder if I have ever fully grieved all of them. I’m not sure if there will … Continue reading Memories of better days
Pay close attention to gut feelings, they are, in my experiences, always right.
I never thought the day would come when I would be faced with saying goodbye to my youngest daughter. It’s not a verbal goodbye and maybe that’s where some of the emotional difficulty plays a part. It’s been over nine years since we’ve spoken and yet it seems like it’s not been that long. I … Continue reading Letting Go ©
This word, mindful, was only recently infused in to my conscious and subconscious minds, through a dear friend who is also one of my brothers-in-law. Even on an airplane, we are instructed to place our mask on first before attempting to help others and this is best as we don’t want to succumb to whatever … Continue reading Being Mindful ©
I’ve looked at this issue many times and have actually witnessed this when I worked with CASA and sadly since then in one of my grown children. There were many times, for the sake of my daughters and myself, I went to counselors with my ex. He was not emotionally mature enough to convince the … Continue reading Parental Alienation ©
Oxymoron...funny word. I recently read an article that spoke of wabi sabi. I had never heard of this however it intrigued me to the point that I did more reading and discovered that no matter the flaws, we are perfectly and wonderfully made. From the very beginning, I was judged on everything; my words, my … Continue reading Perfectly Flawed ©
My oldest daughter was 9 months old and I was feeling ill. I called my doctor and made an appointment. A few days later he called to tell me I was pregnant...again! I have to admit, at first, I was not happy, not because of the new baby but because of who the father was. … Continue reading A Precious Gift ©