Pay close attention to gut feelings, they are, in my experiences, always right.
I never thought the day would come when I would be faced with saying goodbye to my youngest daughter. It’s not a verbal goodbye and maybe that’s where some of the emotional difficulty plays a part. It’s been over nine years since we’ve spoken and yet it seems like it’s not been that long. I … Continue reading Letting Go ©
This word, mindful, was only recently infused in to my conscious and subconscious minds, through a dear friend who is also one of my brothers-in-law. Even on an airplane, we are instructed to place our mask on first before attempting to help others and this is best as we don’t want to succumb to whatever … Continue reading Being Mindful ©
I’ve looked at this issue many times and have actually witnessed this when I worked with CASA and sadly since then in one of my grown children. There were many times, for the sake of my daughters and myself, I went to counselors with my ex. He was not emotionally mature enough to convince the … Continue reading Parental Alienation ©
Oxymoron...funny word. I recently read an article that spoke of wabi sabi. I had never heard of this however it intrigued me to the point that I did more reading and discovered that no matter the flaws, we are perfectly and wonderfully made. From the very beginning, I was judged on everything; my words, my … Continue reading Perfectly Flawed ©
My oldest daughter was 9 months old and I was feeling ill. I called my doctor and made an appointment. A few days later he called to tell me I was pregnant...again! I have to admit, at first, I was not happy, not because of the new baby but because of who the father was. … Continue reading A Precious Gift ©
Christmas 1993. We were living in Indio, Ca. Not much to say about the hot little desert town that we were forced to uproot and move to. It seems odd, that even in the midst of extreme DV, I was grateful I did not have to move as I lived in the same house for … Continue reading Dolls from a Different Mother ©
We were living in an apartment. I had moved my childhood furniture there as we hardly had anything. It was a weekend morning and I was still in bed. I could hear him mumbling but I couldn’t make out what he was saying. As I began to sit up I realized he was sitting on … Continue reading The Mirror and the Mayhem
Eleven years ago today, my Dad passed away. And although he had been ill; in and out of the hospital for many years, I fully expected him to recover and go home, as all the times before. But this time was different. A couple of months prior, unbeknownst to me, he had checked himself into … Continue reading Gone but not Forgotten…4/23/19
This is an excerpt from my memoir I'm currently working on...Keep in mind, this was prior to marrying the ex. I had discovered he was living in his car so I invited him to stay with me. Mistake #1. One day, while I was at work, my ex decided he would go through my things; … Continue reading That Ah Ha Moment resulted in Oh No, but it took way too many years!