Torn ©️

Growing up, I knew there was more wrong than right, in our home, however, I also knew that I had a Dad who loved and cared about me and if not for he and my maternal grandmother, I probably would not have survived. My mother was extremely abusive toward me and the rest of our …

The Green-Eyed Monster ©️

From the day I was born, my mother was extremely jealous of me. She was abusive both verbally and physically. If not for my Dad, my brothers and my maternal Grandmother, I may not have survived. Lessons are to be learned from all life’s experiences. One thing is for certain, jealousy has consequences. She was …

Death of my childhood monster…and her monster as well. ©️

December 2007 We had recently moved from the area my daughters grew up in when I received a call from an officer with the PD. When he first began speaking, telling me who he was and where he was calling from, my first thought was, oh dear god, something has happened to my Dad. Once …

Memories of better days ©️

My Dad would have been 91 today. I miss him. Grieving the loss of a loved one is one of the toughest parts of our life’s journey. I’ve lost over 50 close friends and family members and I often wonder if I have ever fully grieved all of them. I’m not sure if there will …

Domestic Confusion ©

Pay close attention to gut feelings, they are, in my experiences, always right.

Letting Go ©

I never thought the day would come when I would be faced with saying goodbye to my youngest daughter. It’s not a verbal goodbye and maybe that’s where some of the emotional difficulty plays a part. It’s been over nine years since we’ve spoken and yet it seems like it’s not been that long. I …

Being Mindful ©

This word, mindful, was only recently infused in to my conscious and subconscious minds, through a dear friend who is also one of my brothers-in-law. Even on an airplane, we are instructed to place our mask on first before attempting to help others and this is best as we don’t want to succumb to whatever …

Parental Alienation ©

I’ve looked at this issue many times and have actually witnessed this when I worked with CASA and sadly since then in one of my grown children. There were many times, for the sake of my daughters and myself, I went to counselors with my ex. He was not emotionally mature enough to convince the …

Perfectly Flawed ©

Oxymoron...funny word. I recently read an article that spoke of wabi sabi. I had never heard of this however it intrigued me to the point that I did more reading and discovered that no matter the flaws, we are perfectly and wonderfully made. From the very beginning, I was judged on everything; my words, my …

Dolls from a Different Mother ©

Christmas 1993. We were living in Indio, Ca. Not much to say about the hot little desert town that we were forced to uproot and move to. It seems odd, that even in the midst of extreme DV, I was grateful I did not have to move as I lived in the same house for …